An end of year/decade reflection

2019 has been a year. Around this time in 2018, the only goal I had was to finish my book, which wasn’t even halfway completed yet. Well, I did that back in October, along with many other things that I still can’t believe happened to me.

I’ve kind of refrained from talking about myself on here in favor of doing more creative posts, but since it’s the end of the year, and the decade, I thought I’d share some of the cool stuff I did and reflect on how much these past few months have changed me. Because I really think the past couple years have been the best of my life so far.

I started this blog

Yeah, pretty obvious one, but creating a place to share my thoughts has certainly made me realize that I just like the act of creating, whether it be fiction or a ranty, incoherent mess of paragraphs gushing about a TV show. There’s still so much I want to write about, so don’t expect the posts to go away anytime soon (unless I decide to completely focus on YouTube videos, which is far off in the future). I also didn’t expect anyone to actually read or follow my blog, so thank you to anyone who liked my posts and decided to keep up with them. I’m still pretty new to this, and I know my writing style is developing, but 2020 will have more content, hopefully more frequently, so stay tuned for what I have in store.

I wrote poetry…and performed it

Other than reading The Poet X, my only previous experience with poetry was the writing mini game from Doki Doki Literature Club (which you should absolutely play by the way) In August I signed up for this creative writing class at school, thinking I’d be writing short stories and blowing everyone away with my angsty prose. I walk in the first day, and it turns out the class is almost entirely centered around poems, and all students are required to make a 15 page chapbook by the end of the semester. It also turns out that everyone has to perform their work in front of an auditorium holding about a hundred people. The class was wild. In the end I really enjoyed it, even if I was pushed a little too far out of my comfort zone. It was nice to have people read my work and have them react in real time, which I’ve never done before. (a lot of firsts in 2019, I know). I don’t think I’ll continue with poetry, as I learned early on in the class that I am not good at it, but I guess if there’s any lesson to be taken here, it’s that you should take classes based on what interests you, and not immediately quit if it becomes challenging. Speaking of which…

I literally dropped a class because of a book

I am not a math person. This became clear to me my first semester when I took Trig. Do you ever have that feeling when you’re sitting in a class and the professor’s words are flying straight past your head? That was me, waiting the clock out and pretending that I cared about anything the professor was saying. I ended up getting a D, so I very brightly decided I’d try again in the spring with statistics. Statistics was a lot easier than trig, but the problem of not caring was even bigger this time around. I skipped a few classes, and in April, I was walking between the shelves at the library when I opened up a very special book: The House On Mango Street by Sandra Cisneros.

I read the book before, but all I can remember that day was flipping to the last page and seeing those four beautiful words: Mango Says Goodbye Sometimes. I know this sounds extremely coincidental, but reading that last page made me think of myself as a writer. I couldn’t get it out of my mind for the rest of the day, and in that same college library, I opened up one of the computers and officially dropped statistics. Even though it hasn’t even been a year since then, I see it as one of the latest defining moments of my life. The moment I realized that the book I was struggling to make progress on due to half-assing school could actually be published someday, and maybe being an author is a career I see myself doing. I went for way too long on this, but the point is that I like writing better than math and The House On Mango Street is one of the best pieces of literature ever written.

NO GOOD NICK!!!

Yes, I am still obsessed with this show. And I’m still figuring out a way to organize my thoughts into something that makes sense to the average uncultured swine who hasn’t watched it and is unaware of the glorious, scheming antihero that is Nick Franzelli. If you’re reading this and still haven’t watched it, PLEASE GO WATCH IT. I need more people to gush to. I mean, look at her, how can you not want to see this girl succeed in committing criminal activity to a live studio audience?

Starting a YouTube Channel…again

I said back in my introduction post that I tried making videos before, but stopped once I realized they sucked and were about things no one cares about. Well, I’m giving it another go, and if you search up BridgeMoney on YouTube, you’ll see that I already have my Daria post uploaded in video form (side note: copyright’s a bitch). This is more of a trial-run to see if I could take a half-decently written piece and edit it well enough to make something usable. The next video I’m slated to do is my ripping apart of Looking For Alaska the miniseries, but I want it to be a significant step-up in quality, so expect that sometime in early to mid January. There will be a point when I start making videos from scratch, but I figure what I’ve written on here is a good-enough point for me to start.

The new year(and the new decade)

I’m not really the type of person that sets hard goals for the new year, but 2020 is definitely going to be important for my creative “journey”. There’s a couple big writing projects that have been sitting in my mind for a while now, and I need to settle on one and dedicate myself to it wholeheartedly. One thing I want to make clear is that I still care about school, and my obligations there might take priority in getting out more posts/videos. But as far as my real passion is concerned, I’m fully focused on being creative. I have no idea how I’ll balance out writing fiction and my blog at the same time, but I’m confident in the fact that I’m not going to abandon this. I feel good about what lies ahead, and I hope more people will get to share it with me. Thank you so much to anyone who decides to read any of this, and if you’re interested at all in what I do, follow me on twitter @BridgeMoney17, and check out the one video(soon to be two) on my YouTube channel, also BridgeMoney. Well, that’s all I got for now. And like Mango Street does sometimes, I bid you goodbye.